New hair to hide all the sadness.

I'm very sorry for the lack of updates. We're having serious family problems now, you guys. A thing with my father and his mistress. Me and my siblings are finding it hard to cope up to since my mom died just less than 2 years ago and we still haven't recovered. And a few hours ago, my father came here to the house and cursed me a number of times. It hurt me a lot.


I've always regarded blogging as a means of letting my frustrations, depressions and the seldom bolts of insecurity out. But now, I cannot seem to publish my feelings on my personal blog anymore. I'm having these inhibitions I've never had before. I'm on the verge of giving up already. Just giving up on everything and hibernating. To where, I dunno yet.

I looked for people I can talk to personally a while ago. But they're all so far away from me. I was seriously shaking a few minutes ago. Been crying for the last hour already. I feel something painful on my back and chest area. This was the 3rd time I've hyperventilated this week. I hate it. I hate them people who're very inconsiderate. Fuck you and all your insensitivities.

Guess this is the sad rebound. After being happy yesterday cos I got my curly hair rebonded. Even took happy pictures. Now it's all cries, and sighs, and solitude.

 
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Before the incident with my father a few hours ago.




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5 comments

  1. Hey zeng, cheer up! Karma's gonna get his ass someday, but for now, be strong for yourself and your siblings. Ikaw pa? Kayang kaya mo yan. I believe in you! :)

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  2. I don't know if this would help, but hey, it's worth a try. Smile!

    http://www.suite101.com/content/top-ten-ways-to-cheer-up-a21457

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  3. Cheer up, there's always a rainbow after the rain =) You have to keep faith kay God. There are so many people out there who loves you :')

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  4. I'm really sorry to hear about your family issues. The holidays can sometimes be extra hard because you expect to be so happy and joyous but some problems still arise.

    I've been having a bit of a tough month too so all i can suggest is that you focus on yourself instead of the things or people you can't control. I'm trying that one out myself.

    Feel better, Zeng!

    Bea from A plus B

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  5. Zeng! Why is december such a bummer? :( I hope things go well for you. Let's meet soon! Let's eat lots of ChoKiss cake and get happy :)

    sPam of frou-frou

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